BOYS! ARGH!
I swear! boys are driving me up the fucking wall! So, on thanksgiving I went out with a couple of guys who are over 21 here (most people are underage) and we went out to a couple of bars - had free thanksgiving dinner and basically drank from about 2pm-midnight. Well at the last bar we were at, I started hitting on this guy, Dustin, who lives a couple of floors down from me. He told me that he wasn’t a good guy and that he wasn’t boyfriend material, I told him that I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend, I just had gotten out of my last relationship, I was just looking for someone to fool around with. and so he came back to my room with me that night and we hooked up and it was good. we both said that we weren’t looking for relationships so I wasn’t really worried about it at all, I just figured I’d have a hookup buddy when i was drunk. cool.
Skip forward 2 days to Saturday night. A handful of us (including dustin) go out to a club here and I’m trying to get him to come out and dance (he’s a terrrible dancer). He tells me again that he’s not a good guy for me and that there are a hundred other guys on the dance floor that are better for me than him. Basically I roll my eyes cause we went through all this before and go out and have a good time and basically ignore him.
When we get back from the club Dustin and Garrett (one of the other guys here) are hanging out in the hallway near my room and Dustin and I end up talking for quite a while. He’s really really drunk and he seems to get very violently angry when he’s drunk so I stood outside with him while he smoked and ranted, more or less to make sure that he didn’t hurt himself or someone else.
We eventually went down to his room and we were going to watch star wars at like 3:30am and so we were laying in his bed doing that, and we were just laying there touching eachothers hands, arms etc but nothing else because his roommate was there and that’d just be awkward. So I ended up getting up and leaving and going back up to my room because my roommate had just gotten here earlier that night and I didn’t want her to think badly of me. I decided though the next day I needed to talk to dustin when he was sober cause it was getting a little annoying when he was drunk trying to talk to him.
So yesterday afternoon i went and found him and just asked him basically WTF and did he still want to keep hooking up drunk or what the hell was going on. He just kinda shook his head and I was like ok, cool. at least now I know cause he was being a huge pain in the ass trying to figure him out. sigh boys are stupid.
Talked to Mel a bit about it and she thinks that it could be moving to fast for him - like we just got here and all that. She said to give it a few weeks once everyone gets settled in and then see where things go. At this point i’m kinda not sad really, but more annoyed with him. Like, we had talked about this on thanksgiving and we both made mention of doing more of the same in the future but now he’s being stupid about all of this. I bet though next time we get drunk together we’ll end up hooking up. I don’t know, or really care at this point. I’m just kinda going with the flow.