3 guesses as to what this entry revolves around!
so I was out in NH this weekend visiting the grandparents - my gramps’s 80th birthday is in Jan. so of course we celebrated it in November (?!?) but it was a lot of fun. Got to see a bunch of the family that I don’t usually see since they all live out on the east coast. I think they think we’re those wierd kids in michigan! Some of them are definatly strange though. It’s all step-family out there except my grandparents - gets very confusing though so I just call them all by name rather than step-aunt so and so. Well, there were some younger kids this time around who were rather entertaining. Sasha is 8 now and Sarina is 3. Seeing those two was definatly a good time. I’m kinda worried though - after seeing how Sarina acts, I’m really wondering how I’m supposed to teach a 3 year old anything, let alone skiing!
In other news, I started thinking a lot about John and why I was/am so hurt.
I think it’s because I feel lied to. Before we went on our break a month ago I asked him straight out on the phone if he was attracted to Caitlyn. He said no - that she’s a lot like a sister to him. He was attracted to her initially, but not anymore, she’s just a good friend. Ok, I can go with that - I mean, Jason and I are like bro/sis and there’s no sexual tension or attraction between us. That’s like “ew” cause he’s like my brother! Anyway, after we went on our break, he went and hooked up with Caitlyn who he had a week prior said was like a sister to him. Now, he was either lying either to me or to both of us by saying that. If he truely felt she was like a sister than he wouldn’t have hooked up with her. end of story. I can not imagine hooking up with Jason - like i said before, it’s too gross - just ew. So, I think that’s what hurt me the most. I feel like he lied to me.
I had said before and I stand by it now - if he had gone and hooked up with some random bar chick I would not have been nearly as pissed off. I also don’t think I would have been as pissed off if he had told me that he was attracted to her! At least then I wouldn’t have been lied to! I was nothing if not completely 100% honest with him throughout the 3 years of our relationship. Even when Chase and I kissed right at the end I told him immediatly. It really hurts that he didn’t give me that same courtesy.