last day at work (and of course, more ramblings about John)
So today was my last day at work. It was a day from hell which really sucked cause I wanted to coast out and say good bye to people and whatnot, but it was not to be! Started at 5am when I was rudely awoken by my pager going off saying that there was a kid coming in for transplant. Well, I’ve never consented a kid before for the study and the main coordinator was leaving at 6:50 this morning for PHX for a meeting for a different study. I called her to find out what I had to do and she told me and it didn’t sound too complicated but I was still kinda wigging out at the thought of talking to a pediatric patient. She said to go and page our manager and see what he had to say, if he wanted me to approach the family or not. Took him almost an hour to call me back and said, “yes, approach them†so at normal time, my dad and I left for work. The family was getting to the hospital between 5 – 6am and I didn’t leave my house till 6:30. So as we’re pulling up to the hospital, my pager goes off – there’s another kid coming in for transplant. ACK! There were 4 kids on the cadeveric transplant list who were eligible to be in this study and 2 of them happened to get called in on my last day when the main coordinator wasn’t here. What are the odds!?! So I started freaking out about having to talk to 2 kids and their families. Luckily for me the one family didn’t speak much English so I didn’t consent them to the study since who knew if they would really be getting an informed consent. The other child is in foster care which makes her whole guardianship issue a little trickier so I was told I didn’t have to approach them. Thankfreakingod!
After that a bunch more stuff went wrong and it was just a zoo of a day. I’m really glad to be done!! Someone else can take care of all that crap on Monday, I’m out of here! I’m looking forward to moving to UT. I got my address today for that. I don’t know who my roommate is yet or what room number, but I’ve got a place to stay!
One of the guys from JC pm’d me this evening and told me that John had messaged him and said that he wasn’t coming out and we had split up. Chuck still said he hoped that I’d give him a call and he could live vicariously through my skibum year. That’s nice, I’m glad to know I’ve got someone out in the area to call on if necessary. I have to wonder though, who all John has told about our breakup, and what he is telling them? I don’t want to end up getting painted as the bad guy here since it was a both of us thing, but I’ve got a feeling that he is saying that. I’m sure he’s not telling them about Caitlyn and is only ragging on the stuff that I did. I was really trying to keep this off of JC because I didn’t want to get gossip spread about me, but I still wonder if people are talking about me/us.
Chase is right, the real key to getting beyond this whole mess is to stop going on the computer all the time. That way I don’t have the temptation of reading John’s blog or away message on AIM. The next couple of weeks before I leave are going to be a challenge for me mentally. I’ve got to repack a bunch of stuff from my apartment and sort through pictures and weed out the ones of John and I so that way I don’t have that reminder in UT as well. It’ll be nice to start with a completely blank slate. New friends, new job, new place, new situation etc.